The road ahead {2015}


It’s hard to believe we’re almost halfway through February already. I am beyond excited for the things this year has in store! Personally and professionally, this year could be one of my biggest adventures!

In the world of direct sales, January is often considered one of the roughest months. Folks come down with the wintertime blues I suppose. Whether they’re recovering from the tremendous amount of frivolous spending they did at Christmas, or they’re missing all the love and laughter of their holiday guests, it seems January can be hard on everyone.

BUT, I went into January pumped and ready for change, and I ended up having the best month I’ve had since I joined Damsel in Defense back in October of 2013.

Last month served as a reminder that attitude is everything. Of course, coming off my best month ever, I’m extra inspired! On January 18th, the Damsel in Defense corporate office announced their first ever incentive trip to Vegas so needless to say, I’m pretty fired up!

To add to the Damsel excitement, we’ve just added a new service called Digital Damsel. It’s a one-stop shop for personal protection in this digital age. Identity theft protection, credit protection , social media monitoring and more!

If you’d like to learn more about the future of Damsel and the exciting journey we’re on, I’d invite you to visit my website .

As far as my personal life is concerned, that’s pretty exciting as well. My sweet husband and I will be celebrating 10 years together and 8 years of marriage! We’re planning a vacation to Southern California to visit my best friend! This is kind of a big deal because we don’t really plan vacations. It’s gonna be AMAZING to get out of town for a minute! We haven’t been to SoCal we were newlyweds! Can you tell how excited I am?

Starting with this vacation, I’m vowing to take more time for myself this year. I still need my day job, but I’m not going to feel bad about taking every opportunity I can, to get away from it and do something fun! #thisis30


Audrey Hope/Duncan Henry

About a month ago, I posted that my hubby’s best friend and his wife were expecting. She had her 20 week ultrasound and sonogram a few days ago. They found out they are having a girl, Audrey Hope.

But Audrey Hope will not be gracing the world with giggles, the pitter-patter of her tiny little feet, pig tails, or cute purple dresses.

The sonogram revealed that sweet little Audrey has Trisomy 18 (T18) or Edwards Syndrome.

T18 is a condition which is caused by a error in cell division, known as meiotic disjunction. It occurs in about 1 out of every 2500 pregnancies in the United States, about 1 in 6000 live births. The numbers of total births increase significantly when stillbirths are factored in that occur in the 2nd and 3rd trimesters of pregnancy.

Unlike Down syndrome, which also is caused by a chromosomal defect, the developmental issues caused by Trisomy 18 are associated with medical complications that are more potentially life-threatening in the early months and years of life. 50% of babies who are carried to term will be stillborn, with baby boys having higher stillbirth rate than baby girls.

Visit the Trisomy 18 Foundation for more info

Words cannot begin to express how deeply my heart hurts for the these friends, who are more like family than anything. I can’t attempt to fathom the feelings and emotions they are having right now, but I can certainly empathize.

For those of us who have been struggling to conceive, or those who have had health issues that lead them to believe conception may be nearly impossible, a tragedy such as this, is one of our biggest fears.

We hope and pray that someday we will be blessed with the opportunity to carry a child of our own, and that the child will be healthy. No matter how complicated the journey is, no one expects to get news like this.

Please take a moment to offer up a prayer, and send your love in their direction. If you feel inclined to do more, there is a donation link below. You can also visit the Facebook page that has been set up in Audrey Hope’s honor. Her mommy and daddy need all the love and financial support they can get right now.

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Read Audrey Hope’s Story on Facebook

A baby boy, Duncan Henry, was born at 2:02pm today, 09/27/2013. He is now in Heaven, with his loved ones, who have gone before him.

Taking a step back

I recently stated that I was going to quit smoking and start charting my basal temperature again. Well, neither of those things has happened, but here’s why…

The smoking, I’m working on it. Send me positive vibes, prayers, good mojo, whatever it is that you’re into. It’s tough.

As for the charting, I am letting go for a little while. I’m not writing anything down, I’m not opening my tracking app, I’m not marking every intimate moment on the calendar. I’m taking a month or two off to just let things be.

This will help keep me calm and hopefully rid my brain of all the anxiety that usually comes in the final week of my cycle.

“The app says 3 days til Aunt Flo, but I feel different.”

“The app says I was supposed to start yesterday, should I pee on a stick?”

“We had sex every day that the app
said I was ovulating!”

Hopefully all of those feelings will be avoided, and whatever happens, happens, just when it is supposed to.

My thoughts exactly.

I stumbled across this song the other day, and I just can’t get it out of my head. Pretty much sums it up!

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I Would Die For That – By: Kellie Coffey

Jenny was my best friend.
Went away one summer.
Came back with a secret
She just couldn’t keep.
A child inside her,
Was just too much for her
So she cried herself to sleep.

And she made a decision
Some find hard to accept.
To young to know that one day
She might live to regret.

But I would die for that.
Just to have one chance
To hold in my hands
All that she had.
I would die for that.

I’ve been given so much,
A husband that I love.
So why do I feel incomplete?
With every test and checkup
We’re told not to give up.
He wonders if it’s him.
And I wonder if it’s me.

All I want is a family,
Like everyone else I see.
And I won’t understand it
If it’s not meant to be.

‘Cause I would die for that.
Just to have one chance
To hold in my hands
All that they have.
I would die for that.

And I want to know what it’s like
To bring a dream to life.
For that kind of love,
What I’d give up!
I would die for that.

Sometimes it’s hard to conceive,
With all that I’ve got,
And all I’ve achieved,
What I want most
Before my time is gone,
Is to hear the words
“I love you, Mom.”

I would die for that.
Just to have once chance
To hold in my hands
What so many have
I would die for that.

And I want to know what it’s like
To bring a dream to life.
How I would love
What some give up.
I would die
I would die for that.

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Anticipation & Disappointment

The last time I posted, I mentioned that I had about 10 days until Aunt Flo was supposed to return. Well those 10 days have come and gone, plus a couple more.

There is nothing as agonizing as waiting for something, that you really don’t want, to show up. You build up excitement in your mind, “To pee on a stick, or not to pee on a stick?” “How am I going to react if it’s positive?” “How long will it take to get in to see the doctor?”

But then within a few hours, Aunt Flo comes a-knockin’ and crushes your hopes.

It seems my “pms” symptoms are getting worse every month. The fact that early pregnancy symptoms and period symptoms mimic each other, is kind of frustrating. I’ve been off of birth control for over 3 years now. My cycles are still ALWAYS regular, minus the extra day or two late, the last couple months. Every time my symptoms change, I get excited and think that I might finally be knocked up. Does it really take this long for birth control to get out of your system?? GAH!!

Well, all we can do is keep trying, and praying.

I’m going to start charting my basal temperature again. And I’m going to quit smoking. It’s going to be really difficult, but hopefully not as bad as I think. I need to make myself as healthy as possible. I’ll just have to remind myself that quitting is best for future baby. It’s one of the last things I can do to help better my chances, without seeing a specialist.

Try, try again

When you’ve been trying to conceive (TTC) for as long as we have, you become desperate to try just about anything. Where do you go for advice when you can’t sleep? You guessed it, the good ole Internet! You read blog after blog and chat posts from every message board you can find. The more I read, the crazier people sound, but hey, whatever works.

You start off with the easy, normal stuff, like charting your ovulation and body temperature. You try to remember to take your folic acid and/or prenatal vitamins every day. You buy the expensive, special “sperm friendly” lubricant (which is pretty awesome btw). You know it’s not scientifically sound, but you try certain positions that may be more conducive to sperm travel. You lay in bed with your feet in the air after intercourse to help give those swimmers a boost. In my house, we call this “marinating.”

When these seemingly simple “tricks” don’t get the job done, it’s back to the message boards. Here’s where the crazy comes in!

make him eat peanuts….okay… Is there some sort of special fertility boosting agent that peanuts contain?

drink green tea… Isn’t that a diuretic that’s full of caffeine? Don’t people use a green tea supplement to lose weight?

progesterone cream… On your feet? I know you can detox through the soles of your feet. I suppose any sort of topical hormone should be applied somewhere that doesn’t get a whole lot of physical contact.

drink coconut water… I could consider that one. Sounds like a load of crap, but at least it’s delicious.

macrobiotic diet… Whatever the hell that is?? According to Wikipedia (best source ever) it “is a dietary regimen which involves eating grains as a staple food, supplemented with other foods such as local vegetables, and avoiding the use of highly processed or refined foods and most animal products.”

aspirin regimen… I know you can take baby aspirin every day to prevent a heart attack, but to boost fertility? Hmmm…

acupuncture & chiropractic care… That sounds wonderful!! Might try getting an adjustment or two. I don’t know about acupuncture though.

get blessed by the Pope… Well, pretty sure that’s not in my budget.

don’t eat pineapple… It’s summertime! Are you kidding me? Even when it’s not summer, that’s one of my go-to fruits. Not gonna happen without some scientific evidence.

belly dancing… Pretty sure that just makes the baby-making process more exciting, not more likely to conceive.

take Mucinex (guaifenesin)… supposedly has the same effect on cervical mucus that it does on mucus in your chest and sinuses.

don’t drink any coffee or booze… LMAO!! No freakin way! I know I’ll have to give them up when/if I ever do conceive, but I’m not doin’ it until I have to.

lose weight… Sounds legit, but I’ve already lost a good 25 pounds in the last 6 months, and nothing has changed.

don’t try… Sick of hearing this.

get rid of stress… That’s a daily struggle.

take a vacation… Here we go with the budget again. One can only vacation so many times in a year, and still keep a job, and be able to support a family when the time comes.

pray… Probably the best advice you can get. As I said in a previous post, it is definitely all in God’s timing. It’s hard, but even if I can’t give it all over, I can offer a little bit at a time.

Needless to say, most of these “tips” are just humorous to me, but a few may be worth a try! For now, we’ll just keep charting, marinating, and relaxing. The waiting game is ridiculously frustrating, but I refuse to give up.


Tick tock, stop

My hubby and I have been trying to conceive for almost 3 years now, and it’s really been weighing heavy on me. It seems like everyone around me is popping out kids or announcing their wonderful news. Needless to say, their news brings about mixed emotions in our household.

In the last week, two dear friends have taken the time to remind me that these things don’t happen on “our time” but on God’s time. I just need to hand it over, which is harder than you might think, and let Him take control. When He thinks we are ready to be parents, it will happen. And if we aren’t physically able to have children of our own, He will make clear to us the right path to take.

Shoutouts to Jenn and Rach for caring enough to remind me to pause, pray, and wait. It’s friends like these who keep me focused and grounded!

Just have to keep on keepin on and let God do what he does best! (Work in mysterious ways)